Blah.. blah...

I might have cancer...
His goal for 2009 is marriage, but...
I am dating xxx, 15 years my senior and a co-worker...
He is back with his..

Whoa, slow down,  that's too much to take in.. that's pretty much what I have heard these past days.. that and the uncertainty of tomorrow is causing to look and ask HIM, What His plans are? I am holding on waiting for the culmination of those plans.

These past Sundays I have been going to different churches seeking the answers.  It was an enjoyable experience seeing Lordy in  a different -- yeah it was fun seeing Him -- expressed differently, altogether spiritual and holy, what a joy.  I so love being a Catholic.

So, yesterday, a friend at Bible Study was saying, something about feeling guilty all the time, I was smiling but what I failed to tell her is that was Lordy reminding her, inspiring her to listen to what Him, what He wanted her to do.  I don't think it was guilt, it was being more sensitive to Lordy's presence..

The business of sucking up to..

This image has no relation to the text, but it is too colorful that it lends
light to the post.  (I never said I'm smart ha ha)

There is  a TV drama that I so enjoy, it is "Eli Stone", the lead character, Eli was just a regular - driven attorney who will stop at nothing to win his case.  Note the "regular" term used, until he was diagnosed with aneurysm, then everything changed. He would have visions of the future, which changed his outlook in life.  Made him a total suck up to Lordy, a good - guy will all intentions of helping.

Well, we had our share of being a Lordy - kiss the you know what "no disrespect intended".  We got carried away with the desire to please God that we were so intent in helping that we almost cross the line.  Sounds weird huh!. 

At what point should we help and not take over?
Does that involve giving up part of our lives too?
What is the motivation?
Does it make us compassionate or self-absorbed?

I'm telling you even in the most compassioned moment darkness can befall unto us.  This reminds me of an instance when I was disatisfied with the way things were going on at work that I hastily left, good thing it was time for mass, which gave me an opportunity for reconciliation.  I asked the priest, why despite my close relationship with Lordy, I am feeling that way.  He said in no uncertain terms that the reason is I have detached myself from God, from living like Him. He reminded me of the Franciscan teaching that the boxed images of our childhood, the expections of others, separates us from living like Him.  But that doesn't mean that we have to be a pushover, we can still stand up for our rights and what we believe in just for the right reasons. Ovcourse cryola akitch!

Then I have friends who feel that they should remunerate others for their goodness, those who may have been negatively affected because they're smart and therefore moved ahead.  Now, if I look at the premise upstairs this can be a case of sucking up too huh.. sipsip to Lordy as the Pinoys will call it.. ha ha kidding..

And Katie Couric said that, "inner peace is overrated." Hah!